i write, therefore i am

I haven't been writing lately because I don't want to think. Even though I run around all day with "stuff" to do, I feel like I don't get as much accomplished as do some of my friends (who volunteer, publish webzines, have cool hobbies, etc).

So what is there to think about?
1. Pending co-op purchase:

I am 30 days away from the "closing date" agreed to on the contract. I am anxious to get it all done. Too much of it will fall into place at the last minute and is dependent on other things happening (which I have been reassured will happen - that's the way Real Estate works). But still, to a control freak like me, I just don't want to think about it. I can't think about it because I technically can't do anything but wait.

I should be elated that I am about to buy property. This was on my list of things to get done by age 25. And I'm only 25 for about 11 more weeks. But still, no excitement here. Not until I move in and actually trying out the floor plans(S!) I already sketched out.

2. Job situation:

Yes, the honeymoon is over. I still like it, but am now asking myself, now what? The perks are nice but ehh, my day-to-day is not exactly exhilarating. The problem with realizing this is then having to come up with what really does thrill me. Correction, what thrills me and at what salary. Simple tasks at work, those that I know I'm capable of doing and over-doing, are draining for the simply reason of not feeling like it. Enough about this, it's draining me.

3. GMAT:

Though it hasn't gone as I originally intended, I have been on somewhat of an irregular schedule when it comes to prepping for the GMAT. I feel confident that I can score well on it, but then what? So for now, I go through math exercises in my spare time in hour chunks, and on the commute home but don't think too far ahead of what I'll do after taking the test.

Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself and should only take it one step at a time, but that's unlike me. So for now, I won't get ahead of myself, which means I won't write about it.

4. The elections. I am so anxious. Come on, America. Don't disappoint me!

what goes up...

I know it's supposed to be twenty years before I want to really worry about what's in my 401K, but if it goes down to zero before then, umm, that's a problem. Just look at it. That's it, after today, I'm not taking another peek. (But I did change where all my future contributions go)